crying out for a song.

I sit and stare at it. The piano. My piano. Music flows into my ears and through my veins when I hit play on my phone. But when I look at my piano, I can’t feel it anymore. I feel like a fraud. How dare I have this instrument when I don’t even play it. […]

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how did you know to get out of a world gone mad?

Where did you go?   I can’t stop crying. I opened this post up to try and release something that’s stuck inside of me- like using a spatula and trying to scrape dried gum off of a table. I’m sitting here, my t-shirt and lap full of my own tears. I have nothing but white […]

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you are the ocean, and I am broken.

I am overwhelmed. I am broken. I don’t know what to write. I don’t know what to feel. I don’t know how to convey my thoughts into a coherent sentence. I am on auto pilot. I am broken. I am broken. I am broken. I want to write a post. I do, I really do. […]

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rest in peace, mom.

My mother unexpectedly passed away on January 19th. My heart is shattered. She and I may not have always had the best relationship at times, but losing her is a pain I can’t describe. I will write a more in-depth and emotional post later. Right now, my family and I could use some help financially. I […]

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Pirouetting Into My Prison.

There will never be enough blog entries to fully describe the indignation, anguish and hollowness that swirls inside of myself. I try over and over to drain it from my soul. I keep writing, hoping the next post will be the one that gets it all out in the open, far away from my cold heart. […]

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Cannot Be Reconciled With Wisdom, Justice And Love.

“I’m stuck in this bed you made Alone with a sinking feeling I saw through the words you said To the secrets you’ve been keeping It’s written upon your face All the lies how they cut so deeply You can’t get enough you take And take and take and never say No- You’ve gotta get […]

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