don’t read this. seriously… don’t say I didn’t warn you if you do read it.

TW: Rabbit hole of existential crisis, paranoia, pain, and despair. Earlier today, I was hanging out at the local library. I really enjoy going there. Nobody knows me and I don't know anyone there; no one bothers each other. It's just a quiet little world full of wonder that's far away from the scary outside …

benevolent sun.

The sound of my heart beating drowns out the fan on my dresser. My vision is blurry, but not due to tears. My bedroom is still. Everything is still. 24 hours ago, the ground beneath me shook. Everything was moving. I felt sick and my equilibrium was off. It felt like it lasted forever. I …