Fallen Angels are In The Air Tonight.

Disclaimer: Don’t read my blog if you get upset by negative energy. I enjoy writing about the darker parts of me that I conceal. Well, I’ve decided not to delete this blog. Several friends have reached out to me saying they actually read (and enjoy) my posts. I was surprised, to say the least. So […]

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(Probably) My Last Post.

You know, I thought making a blog would be fun. But honestly, I don’t have much to write about. Not to mention, anything I have to say holds no interest to anyone. My inspiration for everything and anything has seemed to disappear. I have ideas, and just as soon as they appear, they fade away. […]

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Depression is…

Depression is me laying in bed all morning, all afternoon. It’s me aimlessly staring into my phone, swiping through apps, as if the answer to my life’s problems are going to reveal themselves. Depression is me looking for the will to try to make a change, to better my life, but unable to tap into […]

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Kintsugi.

My cup is neither full nor empty. The vessel itself is cracked, therefore nothing really stays inside. Since the accident, I’ve felt even more incomplete than normal. Nothing seems to just stay inside and warm me up. My thoughts are jumbled or blank. I have nothing much to say. Everything feels like a void. I […]

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Somewhere beyond the “Otherside”

My head is buzzing. The sound frequencies and wavelengths are churning inside my mind. I lie awake and stare at the wall, as if the answer to my problems are going to seep through the paint and wash away the indignation and pain. I’m not having a pity party, I legit question the universe as […]

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Reflection, Progress, Dissociate, Repeat…

Looking back at 2017, it’s amazing (and scary) how fast time flies by. I mean, it’s already November. Sometimes it feels like I never left, and sometimes I get trapped in this place where I wonder if things have really changed. Then I look around and realize while my body is completely removed, my mind […]

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Existential crisis forever.

I was working today, and I work hard. I work in a coffee shop, but I don’t make the coffee. I’m the bar back, the “runner,” in other words, the bitch of the shop. While I’m running around, doing everything to fill in the gaps of the people behind the bar, there’s a voice screaming […]

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Mental illness is real.

This is the face of depression. The face that suffered silently. Someone who felt that it was all too much to handle anymore. Someone who saved me and thousands upon thousands of others… A golden soul who hurt so much that he took his life 3 months ago. This is Chester Bennington, the lead singer […]

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Music and my everlasting dream.

It’s late, and I should be sleeping because I have to work tomorrow… but I need to get this off my chest. I attended a Dream Theater show tonight, it was my 3rd time seeing them. They never cease to amaze me and always put on a spectacular show. Sometimes I think they’re superhuman (which […]

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Costume #1: Kiki’s Delivery Service

I was invited to an event from my sister tonight; A costume party hosted by the Women in Animation organization. I usually dress up as a couple things every year for Halloween because I’m just so indecisive… Kiki came to mind because it’s a simple and classic costume. Who doesn’t love Studio Ghibli movies (Spirited […]

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