Lost Whispers

February 12, 2019.Reading time 6 minutes.

Life is weird, sometimes awful, sometimes great. Lately it’s been so up and down, and I can barely keep up with myself. I have all these dreams, but no direction. I don’t know where I’m supposed to go, or do, or how to go about it. I feel broken down, and I feel like I […]

What’s The Difference Between a Loss and a Forfeit?

February 4, 2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

I tried to make it better but I made it more sick I tried to make it right And now awake at night I know reality was getting in the way Promises I Can’t Keep / Mike Shinoda, Post Traumatic I want to breathe, but all that escapes me is dead air. I’m blinking, I’m […]

Leave The Light On- I Can’t Face the Dark Alone Tonight.

January 31, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

I’m sad. I feel low. I feel alone. I feel like an idiot. I feel unworthy and like a waste of space. Who knew at age 28––nearly age 29 in 5 months––I’d still feel like this. Aren’t we all supposed to grow out of this teenage angst? I know I’m human, but these thoughts and […]

Waiting for the Death of Today.

January 23, 2019.Reading time 11 minutes.

Actions don’t speak louder than words when all you want to do is scream until your throat bleeds out.

Half Alive in the Dead Space.

January 17, 2019.Reading time 8 minutes.

I’m at this place again, this moment where I’m stuck in my head and I can’t find the words to describe the thoughts racing through my mind. I can barely put it on paper, let alone type it out on my blog. I’m going to try anyway though. I don’t know what I want anymore. […]

Open Up, Let Me In… Let Me Go.

January 2, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I’m knocking softly on 2019’s front door. I’m patiently waiting for it to open wide, to welcome me in, to tell me to make myself at home and that good things are awaiting me. The door is open, and I can walk in and find some source of life again. And yet, I still feel […]

Feeling Around For New Ground.

December 19, 2018.Reading time 8 minutes.

I haven’t posted in a couple weeks, it’s been difficult for me to try and find the words to say. Writer’s block of some sort, I guess. I know the words usually come naturally and just flow without me really thinking about it, but this time has been different. Life hasn’t been too bad. But […]

Lock The Last Open Door.

November 26, 2018.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’ve been pushing aside most things as of late. My energy is low; I don’t wish to waste my time and sacred resources beating around the bush to find answers. I’d rather just lay low than to venture out in the world. I’ve become a lone wolf. You may think that what I’ve been saying […]

The Perfect Holiday Gift: ART!

November 21, 2018.Reading time 1 minute.

Hello all! For this wonderful holiday season, my one and only sister, Stephanie, is taking commissions for her art. She’s a magnificent illustrator, and I strongly encourage you to check out her work! You won’t be disappointed. Everything she creates is made with love and is truly unique. Stephanie has been drawing since I was […]

Giving Thanks to My Demons

November 21, 2018.Reading time 4 minutes.

This last month has been incredibly difficult for me. I try to hide it- but deep inside myself, I’m breaking silently. I’m staring straight into the heavens, begging for something/someone out there to make everything not so heavy. It’s not that I believe the worst will always happen to me, it’s just this cycle never […]