Can you hear me?
My therapist asked me this yesterday. It took me a long time to realize that I am, in fact, not present in my life. I'm grateful. I'm grateful. I'M GRATEFUL. I swear to fucking god, I'm grateful for what I have. But... The darkness in me is telling me otherwise, though. I keep closing my …
Have you ever met someone who came into your life without a moments notice, buried themselves deep inside your heart, only to leave just as fast? Did they look into your eyes as if they could see all the ways you were broken? Did they come in and heal you nearly night after night, only …
I look at you. I look down. I look at myself. I look away. I try to meet your eyes, but the path into your iris is dead. I think I killed it on my end before we locked our visions together. The road is lost. I laid it to rest because why try when …
Los Angeles. The land where dreams come true... well, supposedly. I haven't been graced with the luck of accomplished dreams. Mostly me not having the energy or level of care and determination to chase after those dreams. That's all they are: sweet dreams that swirl around in my infinite universe of a conscious. I wish …
Today has been heavy. I fell asleep with a heavy ache in my soul. I laid down, drifted away into another place that wasn't my room. I don't remember if I even brushed my teeth, which is rare because I'm all about oral care around the clock. I woke up feeling tired and empty. Why …
I'm a shadow in the dark, trying to put it back together, as I watch it fall apart. Nothing Makes Sense Anymore - Mike Shinoda / Post Traumatic I stood in the pitch black darkness. I was staring into the pacific ocean, on the Salt Creek beach in Dana Point, where I (mostly) grew up. …
I've lost myself in everyone else but me. My own soul doesn't live here, it hasn't for some time. It's sad and it's frustrating... I feel empty constantly. As someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, I struggle with these two things: unstable sense of self, and chronic feelings of emptiness. My therapist tells me I need …
