Can you hear me?
Isn't it wild that it's already November? The years go by so fast now as I get older. A strange phenomenon. Life seems to pass by slowly as a kid, because that's just the beginning of your life. As we age, we have more of a past that we can reflect on, thus making it …
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I’m sitting here alone. Wanting to be somewhere but not sure where. Wanting to be around someone, but wanting solitude. How can those feelings exist at the same time? How do I sit with someone and say few words, and not feel uncomfortable and awkward? How can I have everything I want without feeling like …
I'm staring into traffic. I'm not in a car, I'm in my head. I'm sitting in a patio with music playing in my earbuds. But I'm staring, I'm not blinking, just staring into the vehicles that whizz by. I wonder if the people that are in those cars are daydreaming too. I wonder if they're …
I didn't know you long. I should've waited, should've given it more time before fusing my world with yours. Why was I impatient? I guess I was just so intrigued by you; I'd never known someone who was intertwined in their mind like I was. And yet, maybe we weren't so alike after all. I …
My mind aches. My head spins. My heart hurts deeply. My soul is breaking. My spirit has flown far away from me; far from the mess that has presented itself in my waking life. My dreams reveal all the confusion I'm too apprehensive to face when I'm awake. Apprehension and fear have held me back, …
I've waited endlessly through time. I've waited patiently, impatiently, nearly giving up, then taking back all the hope and faith I had let go. I have crawled through the wreckage, through hordes of people that once captivated me, through heartbreak, through blood, sweat, and tears. I nearly drowned in the darkness that overtook me in …
My therapist asked me this yesterday. It took me a long time to realize that I am, in fact, not present in my life. I'm grateful. I'm grateful. I'M GRATEFUL. I swear to fucking god, I'm grateful for what I have. But... The darkness in me is telling me otherwise, though. I keep closing my …
